Today was great. I thought about nothing. I was just there where I stood. Thinking is important, but life happens when you stop. Today, I watched the sunset for the first time since I moved to LA. I'm alive I remembered. I’m in a moment that will end as soon as I try to place it. I've spent the past year just enjoying it. So I pray I don't start thinking about it and ruin it. Toni Mirosevich said, “If I’m taking a walk, I’m in it.” referring to being present. When I read that I thought about the hike I took two weeks back. No headphones just anger. No water all sweat. At the start my mind was racing I was mad. In the end, I found peace. I’d love to think about how life plays out. 

Before I found myself in the moment today, I was thinking about Federal Way Washington. I thought about how in my life its always a place at the beginning or end of something. Sometimes it symbolizes the beginning of the best Friday night you've ever had. Sometimes it symbolizes the end of a day that you wish never started. I got sidetracked and then started to think about the history of Federal Way and why there is a city with that name. I got back on track and started thinking about how at the beginning of my life I spent so much time in Federal Way. I started to wonder if, at the end of my life, the same would be true. Life cycles. Humans are organic. 

I walked into Skylight Books tonight. I believe the clock read 7:57. An in-store book event was wrapping up. People were talking with glee in their voices. I assume it was exciting. I saw a girl at the restaurant next door with the author's book from the event. That must mean something right? I walked through the door to purchase ‘Artless: Stories 2019-2023 by Natasha Stagg’. I had been in the store yesterday and read a chapter. As I watched the sunset today I felt like I had to have that book in bed with me TONIGHT. I couldn't find it on the shelf where I had left it. 

The clerk told me they sold it today. Defeated I ate next to the girl with the book from the event at Skylight. The burrito was amazing. Distraught about not being able to hold this book I had already seen in bed with me. I started to wonder what it meant. If it meant anything at all.I found peace when I decided to let it go. Nothing means anything. There are no rules. At least they say. Today that might be true. I never think about what it means when my bananas go bad faster than they did last week. I found peace in the fact that if I put them in the freezer I can make banana bread when I choose. So why should I think of my life any differently? Everything has a life cycle. The one the book had on that shelf I had seen it on just a mere day ago. Just like me and the bananas in my fridge, because just like humans bananas can be organic too.

• Songs for Our Daughter by Laura Marling: I love this song like I love the sunset. 
• Reeling With PJ Harvey - A Film By Maria Mochnacz: I think about PJ Harvey every day. I want to know her like I want to know love. With all my being.
• "DYWR" by Keon Simms ft. SheedBe: this song made me feel like I could be anyone I wanted. I still feel like that when I hear it.